Two Months.

Well its been two months since my last post so I think its time for an update. The last two months have been interesting, just not exactly the kind of interesting I had in mind.

In April I enrolled and completed the Professional Bartending Academy. It was a great experience, I was called "The Ace of the Class" by the instructor and I did really well and had a lot of fun. I have applied at two bars and neither have hired me. I will be unemployed after this friday and I really need to find a new job. The problem is most bars are looking for someone with at least two years experience. That and I have not been trying hard enough to get hired.

May began with my birthday on the 4th. I went to work late after going to the Hotel Jefferson to try and talk to a manager at their bar I had applied to (they weren't open yet, so my trip was a waste) and then I went to dinner with my parents. I had been getting texts and friends on facebook writing me Happy Birthday wishes, and when I got to work my kids all yelled Happy Birthday, which made me feel loved. That was all great, but as usual my birthday wouldn't be complete without disappointment.

I don't like being selfish nor do I want to act like the world revolves around me, but I feel like my "best friends" let me down. Of all the people I consider to be my closest friends, my second family, only my best friend of seven years has done anything for my birthday. Whenever I mention my birthday around some of my friends, they claim they have been planning to take me out and do something "soon". It's been well over a month and nothing has happened. I stopped hanging out with this group of friends for a while, mostly because I felt unappreciated. I don't need anything big or expensive, my favorite birthday gift ever is a simple flashlight with a bat painted on the lens to turn it into a batsignal.

I went to my cousin's high school graduation last night, which was kinda depressing for me. Its been seven years since I graduated from high school, and I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. Sitting in the audience to celebrate J.R. Tucker Class of 2010 remembering the last time I was in this building I was graduating from Varina High in the Class of 2003, hearing all the inspirational speeches, made me feel like I had failed myself. In the last seven years I have worked at a movie theater, a bookstore, an amusement park, and a day care center. I dropped out of community college after taking only one class in the time I could have become a doctor, lawyer, or gotten my master's degree.

I'm at a point in my life where EVERYTHING will soon be changing. Some things may not be changing as fast as I would like, I'm still not happy with my life right now, but I am the only one who can change it and make it better.